Zoey Ka$h shot by me. Continuation of depression series.
It’s been 31 days since I’ve been back living in New York. My emotions have only been reaching extremes since my feet touched the concrete. Seasons are ending, new relationships are forming. With every loss a new opportunity presents itself. I have no idea what God has in store for me. Sometimes I feel as though I am blindly walking down my path, following a small amount of light ahead. Fear is quietly dormant. Fear not stemmed from being directed off of my path, but fear I will never reach the light.
It’s been a long time coming. Let’s skip the simp shit and get straight to the point. I’ve recently moved to back to NY from Maryland and the world seems to be turning faster, more so now than ever. I’m not sure where or how I want to start documenting the transition into this new season of my life; But I know that I have to, therefore I will. For those of you who took a minute out of your day just to allow a little bit of my energy to coexist with yours I thank you. I’m sure it’d bring great pleasure to the enemy to lead me to believe that no one is my corner, but I refuse to ever believe that everything I’m doing has been in vain. The year of manifestation truly has begun.
Growing up I suffered from extremely low self esteem. I could burst out into tears with the snap of a finger caused by the simplest things. At the age of 9 I had began cutting and contemplated suicide daily. By the age of 11 I was able to sleep for 12-16 hours at a time, go days without eating full meals, and confine myself to my household for weeks at a time. I had previous knowledge of women in my family who dealt with depression at an early age but I never figured depression to be “hereditary”. Depression is not something that most people wear on their sleeve, but I don’t want to allow it to hold me back any longer. Everyone’s dealings with depression varies on levels than most can only imagine, but within this series I will display mine. I wish I could tell you guys how long this series will last or how many shoots it will consist of but to be honest, I am not sure and I don’t think restrictions should have any place here. Enjoy.
All shot and styled by @TeeShotMe
Part 1. Sometimes I feel as though I walk naked in darkness searching for the light.
I was ecstatic when my fellow Generation Y brother Darren Hanible contacted me asking me to be apart of his last studio recording session for his soon to be released album entitled 20. Set to release December 17th of this year. I discovered Darren Hanible ealier this year when he released his “Songs for Women” ep. I was instantly intrigued. Darren’s eclectic musical abilities sets the bar high amongst other artist emerging in our generation. With features by Matt McGhee, Light Show and Marlee D I have high expectations for 20. I await the day you too can appreciate the sounds of Darren Hanible. Love you Darren! I am beyond proud of you! Follow Darren @DarrenHanible