7am thoughts

I have no thoughts. Therefore I am just going to write. I am going to write until my dormant thoughts rise to the surface.  I am going to write until I feel something.
What do I want to feel?
I want to feel his warm hand gripping the nape of my neck while the other finds it’s way to that wonderful home lined in gold.
I want to feel the expansion of my lungs and the restriction of oxygen to my brain as I indulge in a blunt.
I want to feel all the confidence I lacked as a child.
I want to feel the spirit of every god I’ve managed to capture in time.
I want to feel the unconditional love a father has for his child.
I want to feel the shutter release every time I open my eyes.
I want to feel the world accept me for who I am and not who I am expected to be.
I want to feel excitement.
I want to whole
I want to feel complete

Now I just wish I knew what was missing…